**Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault**
I am sick of feeling like *I* have to keep quiet about what happened to me
even though it wasn’t my fault. Just to make people feel less awkward around me, the same people who don’t support survivors.
Lucky you for never having to deal with this every single day.
I am sick of seeing my survivor friends feel guilt, as if they were the bad ones.
Our support systems need to be stronger. Learn consent. Actually learn it. Practice it. Support your friends.
I don’t want to be your friend if you make rape jokes or if you don’t care about these issues.
Fuck you if you think i’m being overdramatic.
Well, it’s been one year too long
Too sad and full of hate
I am looking for a window exit
I am looking for a change of pace
and i’m so drained, thinking of coping mechanisms
When I know no one will want to answer my call
I’m alone, thinking of the inevitable
Wishing someone, anyone would pick up the phone and call
But it’s times like this when I reminisce
and I think about all those boys I kissed
Would I do it again? Would I have learnt to run away?
It’s times like this when I think about
All my friends I had that would call out:
“Hey Andy, come see me. I miss you. Do you even miss me?”
And you know I do
But this assaulted shock is tearing at my heart
And I think i’m gonna break
The fucking vase tonight
and I can’t do it anymore, I can’t explain how I feel
But it helps ease the grime, so being amateurs fine
Oh no I won’t self-destruct anymore
Someday i’ll wake up and discover, it was all a dream
Oh, please say it was all a dream
You never asked, you were someone’s kid
You grew up wicked, you never questioned what you did
You never asked for my consent
Now the damage has been done and you’ll just move on
Thinking what you did, well you’re sure it wasn’t wrong
Or was it? Have you ever asked yourself that?
Oh no I won’t self-destruct anymore
Someday i’ll wake up and discover, it was all a dream
Oh, please say it was all a dream
But it’s times like this when I reminisce
And I think about all those boys I kissed
I should have learnt to run away
And it’s times like this when I think back on
How I didn’t take control, what I did wrong
I have to live with that everyday
And now i’m trying to smile everyday
I’m trying erase the past and look forward into a new day
And all you perpetrators should know
There’s gonna be hell to pay
